tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-365725522011-09-04T20:11:01.990+08:00schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.comBlogger1921100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-47234186455301937572010-12-08T02:17:00.002+08:002010-12-08T02:29:10.769+08:00

i'm trying very very hard now to get over him. it took me awhile to get over A and now E has to come and make me repeat the history all over again but this time worse because i've got no idea what is the problem.and then T is here... very nice person but the chemistry is just not as strong. i don't know if its me becoming a stone or there really isn't any chemistry. i like T just like this, i

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-10684554829230689472010-09-11T03:07:00.003+08:002010-09-11T03:54:42.016+08:00

i am so sick of this! so sick of everything! nothing ever changed, NOTHING!one moment this next minute that, one moment hot next minute cold. FREEZING COLD!what the fuck is wrong with me maan what the fuck is wrong with me?!! everyone - literally EVERYONE has stopped keeping in touch with me. is this the way how things go or is it only to me?awful day today, actually week. firstly hatyai didn't

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class from monday to friday and final year project is starting. can i do it if i have a job too? a job that requires me to work 5 days a week and at least 5 hours per day. i'll have to work on 3 of my weekdays where i will have classes till 5.30pm and work till at least 11pm on two. the thing is can i do it? CAN I FUCKING DO IT??! i'm frustrated that why can i just believe more in myself and

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-10674407959279245812010-02-11T22:33:00.004+08:002010-02-11T22:38:56.073+08:00

i've came to a realisation that i've forgotten how it feels to be in love and to love someone. i would fucked this guy and the next thing i say would be "no i don't love him". but i really do fancy him a lot. is it weird or is it normal? i feel bad in a way, but then at the same time i don't care no nothing. i get to fuck i have some good time and that's all that matters. what's being in love or

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-48153752693845780192010-02-06T01:17:00.004+08:002010-03-06T05:42:54.553+08:00

my first thought was to tell you how awful i feel for not replying your texts recently because i've fallen asleep after working around the clock, but you made me feel more awful for not telling me that you were coming down. i guess you have your reason but still.... it kind of hurts.i kept myself away from you for the whole day although i was around you all the time. i don't love you. thought

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-14042335732351199192010-01-06T13:20:00.004+08:002010-01-16T17:56:00.582+08:00

it has been ages since i last put all my thoughts here because i don't know where to start. not much things have change since the last time but some interesting things had happened throughout the few months.november.went down to kl for MOS but it didn't happen so we drank in instead.2 days in a row and win 'donated' his Bacardi limon.had some nice time with jo, nic and fang on my birthday and we

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-19083405824938896572009-10-27T00:03:00.002+08:002009-10-27T00:10:37.130+08:00

they said friend comes and goes but I wonder if love comes and goes too. this moment i miss him and the next|miss someone else. it's definitely infatuation playing me big time here. i think i like him, i dont know why but i think i like him. someone actually said i'm different, i'm weird and didn't run the next second.hopefully i'm saying this not because i'm drunk.

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-47312772304206651882009-10-18T02:16:00.001+08:002009-10-18T21:12:46.618+08:00

frustration is eating me up again. i feel like that is alot of things that are bothering me but i can't name one. i really can't name one. but i can never go to sleep early. i like sleeping but i hate sleeping. i can sleep the day off but when i'm awake i hate to go back to sleep. that shouldn't even be a bother... i guess. studies? yes i've been slacking off pretty badly i can kill myself after

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-14881503287323312162009-10-14T00:32:00.003+08:002009-10-14T02:44:17.988+08:00

first night first day in kl for october. upstairs, heritage row -- drunk. these was the morning after.the trip overall was pretty awesome, the night was alright. i dont know whether to say i get what i go down for that night. partly. i was about to ditch the trip and them some plans came up so i'm down painting the town red. getting drunk and lots of photography talk, what's missing? him. this

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-53563366647306713342009-10-02T22:01:00.003+08:002009-10-02T22:05:00.947+08:00

sitting here in starbucks after my arrival 2hours ago.been greeted by the whole kl crowd but not by anyone i know.lovely ain't it. simply "lovely". i would hug strangers passing by if i wouldn't been caught doing so.people these days just don't bother bout being on time anymore.another lovely fact isn't it.fuck fuck fuck

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-81504094985147275492009-09-25T21:20:00.003+08:002009-09-25T21:40:04.050+08:00

i miss my daddy. shhh... but i shed a tear when i kissed him goodbye outside my college when he dropped me off yesterday morning. damn i get a lil too emotional these days. but i do miss him now. yea, i get to smoke more freely but i don't feel like smoking anymore without having to hide. reverse psychology? maybe. but there's no one to disturb at home, no one getting me food. no one to get

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-16829503243353801732009-09-20T21:54:00.005+08:002009-09-20T22:21:16.180+08:00

i just got back from kl, quite a pleasant trip other than the few complications and arguments with my sis. met up with him, i thought we wouldn't because he'll be busy on this festive season, i told myself if i don't i'll still be fine and i have to stop this or else i'll never move on. but at the end of the day we still met up. it was for a short while but i'm happy enough.what's weird here is

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-79942761214364948752009-08-09T22:52:00.004+08:002009-08-09T23:09:42.469+08:00

you've been away from me for far too long. i miss you! i want you back!yes i lost my lou due to my own stupidity to trust that jackass that stole her.a part of my life went away with her. really.and the police couldn't give a fuck.fuck you jackass who stole my lou away from me. you cheapo.no other iPod can take over you but if i can never find you i have to get a new one.i hope who did this to

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-1422887681084995652009-08-01T03:39:00.004+08:002009-08-01T03:44:32.192+08:00

call me easily impressed, but i'm quite proud of my first roll of filmthank you again for making this happen.at least i am sure of what i am capable of.

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-68051755572665250672009-07-26T20:39:00.004+08:002009-10-14T12:02:58.285+08:00

... with the demon before he leaves.not much waves but very calm very relaxing.the clear blue sea water that you'll never imagine seeing in penang.and he present me his nikon f801 [mike's the new name*].no new lens, no ipod for present this year but i've got a film camera.i'm liking my days.and he did change the way i see life and live life.he's planted in my memory, good one.i suppose there's no

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-64413652647963627812009-07-15T01:36:00.003+08:002009-07-15T01:52:19.392+08:00

it's been ages since i last really blog about something. so here are some updates. good and bad.- i have not quit my smoking habit- i lost my lou, my iPod touch- i've got the study loan- my hair is still growing- and it seems that someone misses his wild cat- tonnes of assignments/projects- my camera memory card died on me- did some light shoppingfirstly i don't really want to quit smoking but i

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-60272269211155414732009-06-22T01:52:00.001+08:002009-06-22T01:59:59.309+08:00

It’s not okay that you hurt me, but I am okay. I deserve more, and I know that now. And maybe you knew that inside, that you couldn’t give me that yet. So you set me free. We would’ve been so great, you would never have wished for more than I would’ve given you. But you never gave it a chance. So now you’ll never know what could’ve been. Maybe someday you’ll regret it, maybe someday you’ll think

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-34264482101729913432009-06-10T00:07:00.002+08:002009-06-10T00:33:33.735+08:00

outside of my room window tonight, approximately about 9.30pm.the moon so bright it hurts my eyes but i love it.i failed quitting my bad habit.i don't really want to quit, it's one of my favorite thing to do.anyway, fighting the world these days is as hard as fighting cancer.i'm not trying to come up with excuses,i guess i'm just not ready to quit just yet.don't use "try" because using it is

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-42849655861823579752009-06-09T23:41:00.002+08:002009-06-09T23:55:01.178+08:00

it was this gorgeous, well at least peaceful.

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-26359329691503337922009-05-30T23:40:00.003+08:002009-05-31T00:52:59.530+08:00

... and a demon.my two weeks holiday is coming to an end but it is a good ending this time.pure euphoria,the speed,the waves,the wind,the excitement, no words are enough to describe the feeling.i've never had this excitement out in the sea since four years ago.that was my first time on jet ski and i screamed screams of euphoria.today i didn't scream,though the speed was faster, the wind was

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-16372138156379739052009-05-21T01:39:00.001+08:002009-05-22T02:07:35.378+08:00

yesterday my dad found a pack of ciggie from my camera bag and he was so upset that he didn't eat all day. i told dave, even if i'm not killing myself for smoking i'm hurting those around me that cares. so this time it is for real. i'm quitting.i'm on my two weeks holiday again.for the first 2days i was out with nixon, bennie j, coollen and coollen's gf to tour around penang.i wonder why is it

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-23896349614695798842009-05-08T20:55:00.007+08:002009-05-08T21:37:26.197+08:00

here are the pics from the sneaky kl trip. i swear it was more euphoric than the photos. i mean you can't really capture your feelings in your heart into the camera, anyway. kl here we come to invade!so this is the gorgeous blue sky above the kl landwaiting for jo's uncle in the car. ooh imagine the heatwoohuu guess who's back?? afdal! and his friend behind, aripthe rest of the pics will be from

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-53308746438239893952009-05-02T17:32:00.002+08:002009-05-02T18:25:04.341+08:00

me, jo, nic and steph were suppose to go to bukit merah yesterday but we end up in kl instead. did we lost our way? no. what we did was do last minute decision. its was pure spontaneous! just how i like things to be. we got to kl at 1pm, met up with edwin(jo's uncle) and we "tour" around berjaya times square then ikea buying some stuff and then met up with the dear afdal at the curve. my god i

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-20830011427604388522009-04-28T23:29:00.002+08:002009-04-29T00:18:39.754+08:00

photos taken during the first two days f my balding event. saturday night i had dinner with the good old buddies nic & gf, jan & bf, jo and jennifer [nic's friend]. we had seafood dinner and then head up to sunset bistro but it was full so we went to the neighbor, the 'lab pub'. it was pretty nice there but not the songs but the beers were cheap so it's all good.and on sunday, when jason saw me

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-17112665623522935102009-04-25T01:52:00.002+08:002009-04-25T01:57:14.777+08:00

just enjoy :)"why did you do it?""just something to do before i die. i have a list."

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-23475514879769147692009-04-24T22:27:00.002+08:002009-04-24T22:43:33.030+08:00

i have to start accepting manipulation, no?i've stayed long enough in constant, no?well now i got force start living the manipulated life.when things seem like calm waterwhen you're enjoying the peacethings have to change.yes i constantly meet new peopleyes i enjoy the conversationsbut whatever i've gone through was sentimental.i'm the kind of sentimental person that make everythinginto a

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-26925195482771865292009-04-13T23:06:00.004+08:002009-04-13T23:48:28.800+08:00

hah i found some photos to share.ever wonder how i look like in action?here are some behind the scene photos:it's a wrap!photos' credits to christ (except the last two).this photoshoot was for an online boutique by a lady, ting en.honestly, i've never seen myself in action. this is my first.

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-82304291309439206442009-04-12T14:33:00.005+08:002009-04-23T01:05:36.309+08:00

mois is a horrible place to be at, at anytime at all.nutters dancing along the songs i loath,alcohol feels like unwanted dosages,bright lights blinding my poor eyes,bottom line, clubs are not my taste.(i got my ID checked! was yesterday seriously my 16years old day even a little girl said i was 16)i miss those days at the beach with my deep thoughts,in the middle of the ocean indulged by the

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-75355551436601392102009-04-05T23:44:00.005+08:002009-04-06T21:22:39.803+08:00

tonight is like a replay of 7th january 2009.just a little less dramatic.now i understand why it all happened.tonight will be the last night after 9.30.no excuses, no reasons shall break that.is there someone else besides you anyway, mr narcissist?well it is the way you are, not what you want.....you can't really remold a baked clay,accept the shape as it is.history should only be repeated once

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-78942951321880369952009-04-05T00:08:00.005+08:002009-04-05T00:33:52.785+08:00

i had some talk with lars on wednesday about analogue cameras,and he happens to have three hanging around waiting to be soldor to be handed down to someone who'll make good use of it.i was looking for zorki 4 the russian beauty on ebay,but the seller doesn't seems to be too interested.so at the mean time while looking for other seller, i'm using lars's nikon F801.he's nice enough to lend me for

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-71675289303996792192009-03-31T00:00:00.003+08:002009-03-31T00:17:38.874+08:00

i have my life back, in an even better condition.full of hopes, motivations and inspirations.i appreciate the times i had for myself during my holiday.spending hour and hours by myself.to be in the state of deep thinking is important to me.i find myself being inspired so often now.anything i see, read, hear inspires me.i realised if i let my guard down a little once in awhile,i can make good

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-25944323388608481252009-03-30T23:38:00.003+08:002009-03-30T23:58:11.665+08:00

the similarities of the problems i've heard of these days are:"should i leave?"my answer is "if you're not happy what are you staying for?"you stay for happiness, you stay for loveyou leave misery, you leave tears."will i regret?"my answer is "if you are ready, you will not."i left my relationship in anger therefore i regrettedbut today, i'm doing fine, living my life with smiles.do your part and

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-18561755214284974752009-03-24T23:36:00.005+08:002009-04-12T14:30:13.000+08:00

i am back!i had one of my most relaxing holiday ever.my parents went down to kl for couple of days and i was home alone. it was amazing.i get to go everywhere and do anything without "reporting" to anyone.i went to the beach alone and made a new friend. a traveler. a backpacker.we shared life experiences and i've learnt a lot through the conversations we had.it really is amazing to have met

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-61168556527083332932009-03-16T17:33:00.005+08:002009-03-16T19:03:44.253+08:00

the second week of my holiday but the actual holiday starts today.i'm taking a week off the internet.take a break from the tiresome world.internet, i will see you when i see you again.cheers, lovers.her, everything, and everyone but me.

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-15540191059608026422009-03-12T01:54:00.000+08:002009-03-12T13:46:52.586+08:00

that balmain jacket i fell in love with costs 3354 euros! and the shoes from the same designer costs 1475 euros! omg...... speechless. obviously i never thought i could ever afford such piece but still... okok it's a design jacket and shoes why should i even be surprised. but i wonder how those people could afford to buy such pieces of beauty. and not only they own one piece of designer clothing

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-81294484737277693372009-03-09T21:11:00.003+08:002009-03-09T21:43:08.737+08:00

(photo taken by Mr. Lars)me and my print. the car is by the technique, cliche-verre and the other objects that are scattered around are by the technique, rayogram. i totally love the whole process. it makes me feeling like having a darkroom in my home in the future.these photos are what we did after the opening. sit around, have some food and enjoy the beers.not to mention to get looney too.p.s

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-41305361438468368462009-03-08T01:26:00.003+08:002009-03-08T01:30:03.741+08:00

the exhibition went well.didn't expect too much as it's not very well known.still i'm happy to have my artwork involved.i feel accomplished for a reason.i don't go to art school for nothing, you know.and not to mention i've got compliments that made me float out of planet earth.who doesn't like looking good eh.i feel the self- esteem and self- confidence building up in me recently.i feel good of

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-25302708421025256252009-03-07T01:13:00.002+08:002009-03-08T01:17:58.094+08:00

dear stranger, i think you're interesting, you're that one person who came along and impressed me, you're smart and your subtle cocky makes you sexy, you're hilarious without trying too hard,you motivate(d) me, i'm alive!i am actually quite fond of you.stranger, i will wait for your existence. you won't let me down, right?

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-40938509438596257322009-03-06T17:29:00.002+08:002009-03-06T17:33:14.705+08:00

i was so euphoric this morning even i haven't been sleeping for the last 48hours.i completed all my assignments and hand them in.had a great breakfast with dad.but the day turned downwards when i cut my hair!why the hell would i pay to have the old hair style back?!why do i even agree to the hairdresser?!i want my hair the way it is before the cut!i hate my hair now, this is not me!i hate my hair

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-9672777492200860452009-03-05T20:37:00.000+08:002009-03-05T20:39:14.400+08:00

Follow my blog with bloglovin´yeah yeah in loveeeee

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i've always thought of 28th of feb being a special day.i just feel so. no particular reason.so far as long as i've lived, nothing special has ever happened on 28th of feb.i mean there's no other month with only 28/29 days.maybe next year i should do something to "celebrate" this special day of mine.not just posting a post two days after.i've never felt any other days are special, not even my

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-36591343406558999572009-02-28T22:35:00.008+08:002009-03-01T00:45:25.796+08:00

it feels so horrible to know that you're wrong,something that you thought you're right about,especially after being right for so many times.make sense, no?for the first time, i was wrong.my intuition lied to me.i saw it coming my way,it was around the corner,but i had to blink,and it turned it's back on me,it was a false alarm.hopes are violent. i never want to have them again.i don't want to be

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-40741757797221223432009-02-26T23:22:00.003+08:002009-02-26T23:36:32.574+08:00

out of nowhere i kept thinking bout the coming holiday.i would love to:stay home ALONE,keep myself away from the internet for as long as possible,stay on the bed,read,watch movies,and get drunk.and maybe when i feel better later on i'll go out get some air and do some photography.yes i mentioned keep myself away from the internet.i know it sounds crazy coming from someone who can't live without

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-7361165385427496152009-02-20T03:03:00.007+08:002009-02-22T01:04:17.789+08:00

i can stay constant....but i get bored of things far too easily.maybe there are certain situations that i can stay constant in and there are that i can't.i can't define the "situations".whatever the situations are, i still get bored of constant."so what makes me think i can handle constant situations, silly?"but someday things have to change,i can't always get bored of constant -- i must

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-32667454780566094932009-02-15T17:49:00.004+08:002009-02-20T03:01:33.070+08:00

this year valentine's day i did not lock myself in the room painting, take photos nor receive any presents like last year. but what haven't change is that i still drink. yes after work i went drinking with my friends last night. high school mates and college's mates. i loved it. it's so nice to hang out with people i'm comfortable to be around with and go crazy, be myself. i no longer drink to

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honestly today would be the day that i wouldn't mind locking myself in my room and paint all day. i seriously want to be home painting than to be out to see what i do not want to. jesus. the atmosphere is intense. i so want to get out of this place and go drinking. i want to drink! come on what is a celebration without drinking eh. alcohol! alcohol! alcohol! and cigarettes, s'il vous plaît! i'm

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i had three hours of sleep last night so i looked like ghost this morning when i woke up. but it's all worthy. i went slamming coconuts with Juniour and couple of his friends. i swear it was like a war zone it's just that the weapons are..... coconuts. It is was a celebration/event for the Indians, Thaipusam. Usually i'll only go for prayer on the first day and this year i went for the first day

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i hate people with no personality. i hate the fact that i said i hate them because i try to not hate anyone.i'm painting and i'm drinking. alcohol + art= love ♥

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-65093552294849379082009-02-05T00:42:00.003+08:002009-02-21T00:22:56.654+08:00

sometimes i really wonder can i handle the truth?well my answer would be, i can handle truth more than not knowing it then find out about it later on. i'm never good with handling lies and the people who tell lies. i get furious and hurt if i know i got lied to and i don't know why but usually i WILL find out the truth. so if you want to lie to me maybe you should think twice at least even when

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goodbye trust. i'll never trust anyone as they seem from outside.goodbye love. i don't want to be hurt again.goodbye tears. i cried too much.goodbye low self- esteem. i can do it!goodbye bad attitudes. i will be a better person than yesterday.goodbye bad eating habits. i don't want to be anorexic.goodbye fear. i will be brave enough to face everything that are waiting for me ahead.goodbye giving

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i fucking hate liars and someone actually lied right to my face. oh yes i'm furious. but what is said had been said. you can't eat back your words. a liar will always be a liar. furious furious furious furious furious furious! i can't describe how furious i am. how can you trust someone so much and the next thing you know they're actually lying right to you face. now you can feel like a dumbass

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should this be so accurate anyway. when i'm free it'll be ten days after ten days. dang. cny has been pretty..... dull nothing too interesting than getting red packets. i don't want red packets. what i want is what i'll never have ever again. what have i been doing? gambling and drinking. but no drunken nights and i'm broke from gambling. no luck. i no longer push and force. i do not need people

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haha yes. be in control of yourself, be in control of your life. never neglect yourself no matter what. love yourself before loving someone else. you are the only person you'll be with forever. everyone else can hate me but i cannot hate myself :) i've never deceive anyone and i do not deserve to be deceived. i've done all i could and if that makes life easier then so be it. i respect and i

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i opened up my drawer of books and start picking up this book "all men are jerk, until proven otherwise". yea you guys out there might start saying stuff bout me when you heard the tittle. but then don't get it wrong. it's all bout understanding men. after reading it i'm enlightened. i should have read it way earlier but i'm still glad i did read it now. after reading i see things in a wider view

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have i never tryi wasn't trying to liehave i never been honesti will no longer trusthave i never cryi wasn't trying to pryhave i never love youi will never be as heartless as you

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i'm not trying to count but automatically i did. i have a lot a lot to catch up with my assignments. days have been tiring, lifeless, hopeless, energy-less, and everything else. i've got some encouragement from a friend. be confident. i successed or i failed, it will all be because of me and no one else. i am me and i will never try to be someone else. be original and be sophie. in a bad or good

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it's in such mess that i currently have no idea how to clean it up. first week of semester i was unorganised, having hard time to complete my assignments. on the second week i thought i picked myself up a little and can be more organised but same shit different week. and all i've been doing is smoking and drinking then get drunk and make myself look stupid. then get all sober as if my life had

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enough of making a fool out of myself. enough of hurting myself. enough of breaking all my resolutions. i failed to quit smoking, i failed to not scar/cut myself, i failed to not get drunk. so i'm practically a failure in just bout anything -- anything at all. but but but i've got the "leather" jacket i've always wanted and today i've got it for a cheaper price cause i've been good and patient to

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after getting into all sort of shits and know my friends are still here for me to talk to, vent to, etc. they are really the angels that were sent to me and i'm lucky to have them. i've said it before and i'm going to say it again, my friends are the best thing that had ever happened to my life. they'll never reject me, they'll never try to change who i am, they'll never leave me alone when i

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it's so stupid when guys think its just because they're older that makes them wiser. and i think it's BULLSHIT! if you think age matters then you're one stupid fool. ages are just numbers, what inside that person is not always because of the age. in the first place if you think you're so wise and age matters why do you even want to get together? dumb. AGE is just a dumb lame excuse. things happen

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seriously, stop talking bout last night. it's eating me up inside. everyone is having fun meeting chics and stuff and i'm home being sober, crying my eyes out. did not regret to not go out but still i do not need to listen. and i'm not even saying just because i'm sober and everyone else cannot have fun. i'm sober and i do not need to know how much fun everyone has when i'm not aroud. ahh jeez i

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on day 253 we died. i'm once again a miserable single. thank you.but i've got my new year's resolutions:- quit smoking- stop cutting myself when i'm devastated- stop getting myself drunk when i'm upset- work harder- prolly no guys till i find my new victim

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we took the 3pm flight but got delayed and touched town bali at around 7pm. checked in hotel and then went to jimbaran for seafood dinner. great place for dinner. by the beach babeh!

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just another day,just another year.HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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hello! i am back from my super duper amazing holiday in bali. it's super awesome that i feel so miserable to be back. but oh well, holiday's over time to get to old life. i will post up the vacation's photos.... soon :)p.s happy holiday, lovers!

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you do not earn trust within a minuteyou do not earn trust within a dayyou do not earn trust within a weekyou do not earn trust within a monthit takes ages and all the guts to trust someonebut once a wrong step is takenall those days were goneeven if you want to start earning trust againit might not work outonce a liar, always a liar.i spill my guts to trust again but the disappointment is larger

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i've not been this ill for so long. i've got no idea what makes me ill. just out of no where i'm ill when i woke up the next morning. sigh. here's so pics from the sunset bistro with all my friends, they celebrated my birthday early for me last two saturday[s]. sweet i know :D

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fuck parties! fuck surprises! i hate all of it! and fuck my 18th birthday! what is so big deal??! fuck off!

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sometimes i wish i'm living in a dream sometimes i don't. most of the time i do, but obviously you don't live in a dream just because you have to. so i've got be realistic and work to live in my dreams. life is not easy. no one says it's easy anyway.p.s i kind of like this photo. meant to be dreamy like

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saturday was nic's birthday party that me and bern threw out for her. at sunset bistro. attendees: me, bern, teong chet, kriss, sharon, kriss's two friends, nic's one friend and sharon's one friend. everything went well until it rains..... which after that still going crazy.dancing with the firei got tipsy that i started taking pics of the tree above meok who is he one getting high now...same

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i feel that i'm living in the fantasy world with all these new awesome gadgets i've been drooling for so so long!. first christmas came early, my dad got me a lens, and now my birthday came early because bern just got me an ipod touch 16g! seriously... the world is spining too fast or what? but whatever it is that is happening, i still love it!. woohuuuu..... now at the mean time i have nothing

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-67403509211283021642008-10-26T23:55:00.003+08:002008-10-28T00:08:03.856+08:00

i've got a new lens today! OMG! i'm so so so so so happy. euphoric! it's a 70mm - 300mm f/4.0 - 5.6. cost 1300bucks but it's amazing! lol i can zoom so far that i think i can capture so much. and the trip to bali with my family is confirmed. woohuuuuu! this year is awesome! i'll post up photos taken with my new lens. good tings come to those who wait right. i didn't get my lomo fisheye camera in

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i wanted a bag free day so i didn't bring along my camera on my last day in kl. stupid right, i know. we went to carl's jr for dinner on friday with kal. i went to folio and room to look for the lomo fisheye camera but they were out of stock. and they wouldn't have it for the next three months. i'm so miserable. we watched max payne -- i mean kal and bern watched maxpayne and i fell asleep

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thursday started off with a pretty bad way. i was helping steve to draw some lettering and i wanted to do some research but i don't want to stay in the office. so i went out and to 1U with bern's laptop. there was internet connection but no power plug. even mcdonald's and burger king! and the ones in starbucks weren't working. i got so pissed but i can still go on working on the lettering. i have

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we didn't go anywhere or do anything much on wednesday, cause bern was very tired. so we went to wendy's for dinner with steve then went home and have a nice rest.

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here's day two. we had dinner with bern's friend, kal.i can never get tired or bored with these blurry lights. i simply love them so much.

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i know i know i haven't post up a lot a lot of pics but i'll try to do it. none of the pics from the outing with jo and nic work out so that is sad. but there are lots of pics from kl.so the journey starts here...the only photo with me throughout the whole tripsome long exposure in the busitallianies, the curvehere's my sis and steve

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so far so good. my trip down to kl isn't that bad. it's my second day here. life's good. i know it's not a big deal to come down to kl but traveling away from penang once in awhile isn't that bad. my objective here is to get a lomo fisheye camera... which i'm still wondering should i get one but then.. yea i shall get one. advices aside, i'm gonna get it. life have been kind to me since i got

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is to hang out with my great great friends, josephine and nic. unfortunately janice is not around. i was supose to have pictures of tonight's but nic was holding my cam and most of the pics turn out blur. lol. i'll try to do something bout it. anyway tonight is awesome. although it's nothing much but i had fun. i longed beers and tonight i have it. snow beer. cool. lol. we talked all night bout

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everything is so fucked up fucked up today. i'm going be fucking vulgar. my pc sucks and the connection sucks big time. every single fucking thing is making me very frustrated!FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!in the mood of frustration

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yea that is me. staying up most of the nights and think of things that i won't find a solution to when i wake up in the morning. what what what???successfulsecurityspontaneousdaringwisechallengingsophisticatedi have no idea what is the list for and why did they even came out. fuck i just feel like blogging.fool that plays by the rules. rules are meant to be broken, silly.

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158 days together.not too long yet not to short. considering all those bad times it's long enough to make me feel old with him. there aren't really any bad day with him because an argument just wouldn't last any longer than 24hours and yet i will never be mad at him for too long. it just will not happen. there aren't any bad day but there are boring days... well nothing is perfect, right?1 = 1st,

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i think i should go back to my old anti social self. stop any unnecessary communications with everyone... as in everyone. and be as ignorant as possible.to do list:avoid talking too much to people/ in front of peopleavoid any deep conversationavoid personal questions/ issues from unnecessary peopleavoid anything that will harm mebe careful of everyonebe careful while talking/ communicatingstop

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alcohol, chocolates, ice cream, music, books & works[arts].... LOTSOFWORKS[arts] enough alcohol to make me tipsy so i'll be numb for a couple of hours.chocolates and ice cream are just obsessions.music to throw senses into my head and relaxes me mind.books to make me lost in another world which is not as painful as the one i'm living in.works to bury myself in and forget bout all the sorrow and

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loathe loathe loathewhore whore whorei see the similarities

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what the fuck is faith? faith is just something fake so fake that it gives out fake hopes.and i swear to god from today onwards whatever smile that is on my face will be fake, whatever words i say will be lies, and whatever that is in me will be anger.who cares if it's real? because they just want to see what they want and don't care if it's real. i'll fulfill you. everyone says they hate lies

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Out of nowhere i thought of having a wall shelve. I mean since I love sleeping with my books and camera, why not i just have a wall shelve right above my bed that I can put some of my books and my theodore up there. That'll be so convenient and awesome! and this wall shelve from Ikea looks pretty cool but I'll love something more simple/ minimalistic. mayb ejust a plank in white?i've been so busy

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my mistake for being demanding [dave said that]my mistake for depending on the wrong person so i could have a lifemy mistake for being convinced that my holiday will be interestingmy mistake for believing in someone again

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this was what we did the other day before closing down the shop. fooling around. and i totally love the effect with a film in front of the lens. i love the colours! i discovered something so fun and pretty! weeee.......he said this look like he's in heavenjason was still doing some carving for me. how nice of himit suck that i didn't get no nothing for the photography contest i joined :(

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the other i was watching frou frou- let go video and then i end up loving this movie 'jeux d'enfants' (eng ver: love me if you dare) and then i got addicted to this song: la vie en rose. it's so classic especially the one by edith piaf. lovely simply lovely. i've listened to this song before but now i'm addicted to it.french version by edith piaf:Des yeux qui font baiser les miens,Un rire qui se

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fucking hot?! fucking hot?! fucking hot?! ................hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha i swear i could laugh till i shit my pants!

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-56541637217563758212008-08-12T20:43:00.003+08:002008-08-12T20:48:30.354+08:00

androgynous agyness = LOVEi love those shirts. i want something similar!

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-2629489888401073502008-08-11T20:48:00.005+08:002008-08-14T21:05:50.103+08:00

"she's fucking hot but her attitude like shit.""woo hot mama!""well they're pretty because they wear make ups wear heels yada yada.........""nice ass...""nice bod.."seriously i don't give a fuck. and i hate girls that looks like typical girls/ dress like typical girls. i'll never change how i dressed just to be like those girls, i'm not trying to be a wannabe, i'm not rushing to grow up, yea

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-64611437844551854532008-08-11T08:04:00.004+08:002008-08-11T08:19:47.883+08:00

my two weeks break are now officially over. i'll leave for my class in 30mins to start off the new semester. and all i can conclude from my two weeks break is -- nothing. nothing happened, nothing unforgettable happened. two weeks break are fill with boredom, every fucking weekends are the same as every fucking weekdays. love holidays? i never loved them since i was a kid. took a break from the

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-66343609891540184552008-08-10T22:58:00.003+08:002008-08-10T23:13:58.921+08:00

today is a very fucked up day, because i was so excited to have a new bag and external hard disk but at the end of the day i've got nothing. that is how fucked up it is plus i ate really really full during dinner and feel like puking and i puked when i got home. felt bad for puking most of the food out.the fucking bag cost 500bucks, too much out of budget with is 300 bucks and i didn't get the

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-6212777789545198932008-08-10T20:36:00.001+08:002008-08-10T20:38:21.574+08:00

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schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-18804064613674909392008-08-10T19:09:00.002+08:002008-08-10T19:22:32.545+08:00

.... for a moment there i thought i would start crying.right on the spot in the shop.it feels like you found someone you love but you can't be them.i heard the price and i felt i shrink into a really tiny size. 500bucks??! yea i'm that small and the price is so big.... i don't even earn 500bucks in two months how can i even get it. i don't get it!! life can be so mean to me sometimes. great --

schizohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01427215374711480756noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36572552.post-50924080103920303102008-07-23T20:34:00.001+08:002008-07-23T20:49:10.990+08:00

miss and love you, my dear brother....

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